post: falling behind

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+title: "Falling behind"
+description: "In this blog post I reflect on this feeling of falling behind that I've been experiencing lately."
+tags: ["Reflection", "Values"]
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+# Falling behind
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+It’s impossible to live these days without the ongoing feeling of falling behind:
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+- News you have to read.
+- Podcasts that you have to listen to.
+- Recommended restaurants to try.
+- X posts to catch up with.
+- Emails and Slack messages to read.
+- GitHub notifications to go through.
+- Travel experiences to experience.
+- Technologies to catch up with.
+- Workouts to do.
+- Kilos to lose to match the stereotypes.
+- WhatsApp audio messages to listen.
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+I feel the world around me has got so hectic so quickly, that my brain hasn’t been able to scale. In fact, *I don’t think it should.* Trying to scale puts me in the perfect mode that capitalism likes: [over-consumerism](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Overconsumption_(economics)). But what about our mental exhaustion? That’s something only the person suffering cares about. 
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+These days I feel a lot like falling behind, like jumping from one thing to another until I go to sleep. Everything ends up being irritating as a consequence. 
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+And this is a mode I don’t like. I’m aware I don’t like to go through my days that way, nor that is something healthy, but somehow I find it hard to escape. When I manage to ignore all of that and put the focus on myself, which for instance happens a lot when I’m flying, then I have the most mental relief and joy. It’s a forced disconnection that I wish I could force myself at any time without having to step on a plane. It’s a gift being able to do that in a so connected world.
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+So I’m figuring my way out, but I don’t have the formula yet. I’ll try to go through the pain of reverting some mental patterns that are the consequence of many years of mindlessly embracing a lifestyle that has proven not to be healthy at all. Hopefully, I’ll get through it and restore some mental sanity.